Everything I Was, Everything I Am

Shown at Monkton Arts, Ryde 16-26 September 2025.
Curated by Lena Evans

Loose painting of a woman lying down painted looking at her on the bed from her feet

I was never yours
Acrylic on paper 40 x 30cm (framed)

£80 (please email to purchase)

a painting of a black pregnant woman holding her stomach and gazing down at it

Set Free
Acrylic on paper 40 x 5ocm (framed)

£100 (please email to purchase)

a painting of a Asian woman wearing a white dress hiding her face with her arm representing how woman often feel unseen and invisible in society

I Broke Free
Acrylic on paper 40 x 50cm (framed)

£100 (please email to purchase)

a painting of a woman sat in a foetal position representing how women can make themselves small to fit in or make others feel more comfortable.It also represents how women's voices can feel small in the world and how they sometimes struggle to take up their own space.

I Am Not to Blame
Acrylic on paper 40 x 50cm (framed)

£100 (please email to purchase)

a painting of a black pregnant woman holding her stomach and gazing down at it

I Will Not Lose Myself Again
Acrylic on paper 40 x 50cm (framed)

£100 (please email to purchase)

a painting of a Asian woman wearing a white dress hiding her face with her arm representing how woman often feel unseen and invisible in society

Who Was I Then?
Acrylic on paper 40 x 50cm (framed)

£100 (please email to purchase)

Everything I was, Everything I am, is a deeply personal exploration of identity and the ways it is shaped, fractured, and concealed over time. It reflects on the lived experience of domestic abuse, late-diagnosed ADHD, motherhood, and perimenopause – life stages and events that carry both loss and transformation.
The work highlights how the self can become fragmented: how we lose parts of ourselves in order to survive, how we forget who we once were, and how we learn to wear masks to make ourselves safer or more acceptable to others.
At its heart, this body of work asks: what remains when so many layers of identity are stripped away? Is it possible to recover what was lost, or must we learn to embrace what has emerged in its place?
These pieces hold space for the silenced, hidden, and unacknowledged aspects of self – the parts pushed down or erased in order to belong.
Everything I Was, Everything I Am is both a mourning of the selves left behind and a reclamation of the strength, resilience, and creativity that endure.

This work was howm at a solo exhibition at Monkton Arts, Ryde 16-26 September 2025.

Supported by an a-n bursary.

© Sara Truckel 2025